Life changes

So it's been a terribly long time since I've written, but I haven't forgotten my little space on the internet. Life has been a series of twists and turns the last four weeks. I left my old job, started classes and began a new job. Oh and I finished my summer class and started putting together my final paper for my master's degree. And all this on top of the general day to day living. It's been a busy month, but I love it and won't be complaining because in a few weeks I'm headed to Disney World! :-) Yay.

As I move forward with the new job and find my way through the confusing maze of state government I am comforted in my decision. I know this was the right move to make for myself, not only career wise since it's in the field of public administration, but also because it is more rewarding. For the sake of privacy I won't reveal details, but I can say it's helping people in ways I have never helped before and it's truly something that is life changing.

The sadness though of moving forward is something I had expected, but it is of a different variety. For years I wanted one thing, to work for my university where I received my degree. Not only because it was comfortable, but because I enjoy academia. I enjoy learning, enjoy taking classes (note I do not mention tests! Hate those). I genuinely enjoy  the learning process and increasing my own understanding. I know I will carry that love with me for the rest of my life. However, the time to leave was a simple one. Once I made the decision I wanted it to happen, wanted to say I had made the decision and I was moving forward. My great grandparents had a book in their front room (or at least I think it was there, it's been a while so please forgive me if I don't remember.) titled "The Grass is Greener over the Septic Tank." I never really understood that saying as a child. Never had much cause to really ponder the saying, but as I've gotten older that title remains in my head. It has always been a description I think of when making choices. Sometimes the things that are flashy and seem to goo to be true really are too good to be true. I got what I wanted more than anything in the job, but in the end it turned out to be something I didn't need.

I got consumed thinking this was what I wanted, but failed at asking if it was what I needed. The choice wasn't an easy one and came with plenty of thoughts of doing something different and I'm sure in a few months I may ask myself a few million times if I was crazy. Yet I know for me this was what I needed. The first day I stopped at my local store and picked up a few things. I made a quip about the fact that I had misplaced something and that even with all my education I was still scattered on somethings. Long story short the inevitable question of whether I was using my degrees was asked. For the first time I was able to say with a smile I was using all three of my degrees. The feeling at that moment was worth all the trouble over the years. I'm excited to see where the future leads and to what will come later down the line. Or in the words of Pocahontas "just around the river bend" is something else I'm not sure of but I know it will be good.