I hate statistics. By hate I mean really, really, REALLY hate statistics. I'm stuck in statistics hell. My research paper is not going all that well. I've undergone about nine billion revisions and none of them are getting me remotely close to being finished. Ok nine billion is a little exaggerated, the number is more like six, but oy I'm dying from them all. Part of the problem is I've waited far too long to get this stuff finished. I'm a world class procrastinator. I put things off until they can't be put off any longer and it's exactly what I've done with this paper. I've put it off far too long and now I'm paying for it. But I'm not giving up. I'll fight with every last fiber in my being to get this paper finished and turned in because no matter what happens I'm graduating and putting graduate work behind me once and for all.
I had to be on campus today and it was kind of strange. I still have a class this semester, but I don't go onto the main campus. I haven't set foot on the main campus since I bought my books way back in January. It's strange. I was walking- well more like stumbling because of this stupid boot on my foot- across the campus to the Social Science building and it struck me that the campus is not my second home any longer. For so many years it's served as my home away from home. The place I spent more of my time than anywhere else because of class and work and extra curricular activities. Campus was a place of comfort and familiarity. I've been there for the last 14 years I should feel comfortable on it by now. Walking across the short space between the building and the parking lot I realized I've finally moved on from the campus, moved on in my mind as I haven't spent time on there since last year. I thought I would be sad moving away from my campus home but sadly I wasn't all that upset. Instead the realization lit the fire that much more for graduation. The realization I've reached the point where I need to be finished because internally I am already finished. Now to finish the research study paper from hell and get the hell outta there!
